I stress. So I eat. Baked goods, sodas, and super unhealthy things like Spaghettios and Chunky Soup are what I turn to for relief. I'm an emotional eater to the max. I also have no control on my portion sizes. I'm so busy feeding others that when I do have a moment to eat I PACK IT IN. I could honestly out eat anyone. Bottomless pit. But while I may not look it, I only weigh about 95 lbs, I feel the effects. I am fat on the inside. I can hardly do anything physical for very long before I am out of breath and totally exhausted. So dont any of you get your panties in a knot by me saying I feel fat. I FEEL fat. I feel unhealthy. And it breaks my heart and soul a little to remember the good ol days when I could easily throw double fulls and do 6 or 7 whips down a spring floor. I miss feeling fit and healthy. Also I didn't pee my pants when I jumped on a trampoline back then. But that's a birthing babies consequence and I'm proud about that one. Not the peeing my pants part, birthing the babies part. HA!
I have every excuse for you in the book to not do anything and just continue to eat whatever the crap I want to get me through the day. But I am kind of tired of letting food rule my day. I seriously wake up in the morning so exhausted I want to cry, but then I think "oh! I can eat that eggo waffle for breakfast or that apple crisp for an after lunch treat. And then at the end of the night I can eat some ice cream after the kids go to bed. Ok, ready to get up!" Sick in the head people! I want to be excited about getting up in the morning to be a mom and wife and human being. I have let processed foods and sugar take over my brain and therefore, life. Me and my family deserve a happier me. So this is my first step. Sugar Detox.
I have tried cutting sugar before. I gave up. Doug and I tend to give up together and binge. But we are feeling more driven this time. We have two little inspirations to help teach about eating healthy this time. How can we teach if we don't do it ourselves? I'm going to be more proactive about it this time and accountable. Writing about it on this blog and posting instagrams about it, hopefully, will help me to stick to it. I want to replace the stress escape food addiction with something healthier, mentally and physically. I believe fixing the mental issues are a huge part of that. I also need to learn how to deal with stress more healthily. It seems crazy to be this in depth about cutting out sugar and processed foods. But for me, it is a big deal. I think I NEED this stuff to function and that is wrong. It's going to be a rough road ahead, but I am looking forward to it.
Screw you processed food industry. You suck.
Here are some links to sugar/eating addiction info:
http://www.medicaldaily.com/your-addiction-processed-foods-how-pizza-sugar-and-chocolate-can-act-just-hard-drugs-322944
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2235907/
http://aweighout.com/about-emotional-binge-eating/emotional-compulsive-overeating/
Here is the book we are using:
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